Thursday, August 9, 2012
Sunday, May 20, 2012
Less Than A Week
Less than a week left for this school year.
Less than a week left before I go to my doc appt.
Less than a week left before I can relax.
Less than a week left before I can have a hint about next school year.
Less than a week left.
Thank goodness!!
Less than a week left before I go to my doc appt.
Less than a week left before I can relax.
Less than a week left before I can have a hint about next school year.
Less than a week left.
Thank goodness!!
Sunday, May 6, 2012
It's been a long time since I posted. I have really kinda avoided this blog for the obvious reasons. It makes me sad. That's the main one. However, the good news is it is almost 2 years since my last treatment & no new sign of growth.
The clinical trial was over about 3 months ago. Now, doc said I only go see him about every 3 months until there is evidence of growth. I don't like to think about what if there is growth.
All in all, it's been almost 3 years since it was first seen on the CT Scan. Guess that answers one question.... Yes, I must have a special purpose! :)
The clinical trial was over about 3 months ago. Now, doc said I only go see him about every 3 months until there is evidence of growth. I don't like to think about what if there is growth.
All in all, it's been almost 3 years since it was first seen on the CT Scan. Guess that answers one question.... Yes, I must have a special purpose! :)
Monday, August 2, 2010
Dear God,
As you know, I'm going to talk to my doc about alternative 'stuff'. You know I don't like this waiting thing.... I can be patient, but dang, not with stuff like this. Please give me the (nice)words to say to him and please don't allow me to cry like the last several times. I want to do something more.... and I want to live past four years, or whatever the short time is.
Jackie
P.S.: Thanks for allowing me to sleep without taking extra meds.
As you know, I'm going to talk to my doc about alternative 'stuff'. You know I don't like this waiting thing.... I can be patient, but dang, not with stuff like this. Please give me the (nice)words to say to him and please don't allow me to cry like the last several times. I want to do something more.... and I want to live past four years, or whatever the short time is.
Jackie
P.S.: Thanks for allowing me to sleep without taking extra meds.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
July 7, 2010
Dear God,
As you know, I had another CT Scan this morning. I drank "the stuff" and have suffered those consequeces. Now, it's your turn. Make those spots disappear!!!
Oh, and btw, I know there are other people out in the world facing similar issues who feel the same way I feel (read yesterday's entry). Doesn't that say something for those who suffer? Just wondering.... do you keep a spreadsheet of all the different health issues to determine who gets what?
Jackie
P.S. Thanks for Starbucks Iced Coffee.
As you know, I had another CT Scan this morning. I drank "the stuff" and have suffered those consequeces. Now, it's your turn. Make those spots disappear!!!
Oh, and btw, I know there are other people out in the world facing similar issues who feel the same way I feel (read yesterday's entry). Doesn't that say something for those who suffer? Just wondering.... do you keep a spreadsheet of all the different health issues to determine who gets what?
Jackie
P.S. Thanks for Starbucks Iced Coffee.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
July 6, 2010
Dear God,
I have to find a way to relieve the stress inside me. I thought this is as good as anything. I'm not sure who all will want to read it, but as you know, I'm a very blunt person. That just means I will type this to you as I normally talk to you. As we both know, sometimes, it just isn't very nice. I think you understand me enough to know that.
I hate having cancer. I don't know why I was the one chosen for this disease. Lung cancer of all things!! Couldn't you have found something that at least had a cure? I'm rather sick of being one of your poster children for having some of the worst things in the world happen to them. Especially since I try so hard to do good things. Many people would argue the point and say you did not cause this within me. I disagree.... at least, you allowed it to happen. And that pisses me off!! I have no bargaining chips... nothing to exchange for this cancer. And, btw, five years of possible life? I'm not ready to die between now and age 56. I want at least another 20 years. Is that so much to ask for? You allow so many horrible people to live way past their prime. I just don't get it...
Jackie
P.S. Thanks for peanut butter.
I have to find a way to relieve the stress inside me. I thought this is as good as anything. I'm not sure who all will want to read it, but as you know, I'm a very blunt person. That just means I will type this to you as I normally talk to you. As we both know, sometimes, it just isn't very nice. I think you understand me enough to know that.
I hate having cancer. I don't know why I was the one chosen for this disease. Lung cancer of all things!! Couldn't you have found something that at least had a cure? I'm rather sick of being one of your poster children for having some of the worst things in the world happen to them. Especially since I try so hard to do good things. Many people would argue the point and say you did not cause this within me. I disagree.... at least, you allowed it to happen. And that pisses me off!! I have no bargaining chips... nothing to exchange for this cancer. And, btw, five years of possible life? I'm not ready to die between now and age 56. I want at least another 20 years. Is that so much to ask for? You allow so many horrible people to live way past their prime. I just don't get it...
Jackie
P.S. Thanks for peanut butter.
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