Dear God,
As you know, I had another CT Scan this morning. I drank "the stuff" and have suffered those consequeces. Now, it's your turn. Make those spots disappear!!!
Oh, and btw, I know there are other people out in the world facing similar issues who feel the same way I feel (read yesterday's entry). Doesn't that say something for those who suffer? Just wondering.... do you keep a spreadsheet of all the different health issues to determine who gets what?
Jackie
P.S. Thanks for Starbucks Iced Coffee.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
July 6, 2010
Dear God,
I have to find a way to relieve the stress inside me. I thought this is as good as anything. I'm not sure who all will want to read it, but as you know, I'm a very blunt person. That just means I will type this to you as I normally talk to you. As we both know, sometimes, it just isn't very nice. I think you understand me enough to know that.
I hate having cancer. I don't know why I was the one chosen for this disease. Lung cancer of all things!! Couldn't you have found something that at least had a cure? I'm rather sick of being one of your poster children for having some of the worst things in the world happen to them. Especially since I try so hard to do good things. Many people would argue the point and say you did not cause this within me. I disagree.... at least, you allowed it to happen. And that pisses me off!! I have no bargaining chips... nothing to exchange for this cancer. And, btw, five years of possible life? I'm not ready to die between now and age 56. I want at least another 20 years. Is that so much to ask for? You allow so many horrible people to live way past their prime. I just don't get it...
Jackie
P.S. Thanks for peanut butter.
I have to find a way to relieve the stress inside me. I thought this is as good as anything. I'm not sure who all will want to read it, but as you know, I'm a very blunt person. That just means I will type this to you as I normally talk to you. As we both know, sometimes, it just isn't very nice. I think you understand me enough to know that.
I hate having cancer. I don't know why I was the one chosen for this disease. Lung cancer of all things!! Couldn't you have found something that at least had a cure? I'm rather sick of being one of your poster children for having some of the worst things in the world happen to them. Especially since I try so hard to do good things. Many people would argue the point and say you did not cause this within me. I disagree.... at least, you allowed it to happen. And that pisses me off!! I have no bargaining chips... nothing to exchange for this cancer. And, btw, five years of possible life? I'm not ready to die between now and age 56. I want at least another 20 years. Is that so much to ask for? You allow so many horrible people to live way past their prime. I just don't get it...
Jackie
P.S. Thanks for peanut butter.
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